Joy

I finally saw your article...

It's truth... Both of us not each others' type.

Besides, i think u should know.

I don't like you at the st time i know ur existence...

I still remember the st day i know ur existence through my friend, Chun...

It's when im still aged of 15, and recently associated with msn... n u're the first female i did add into my msn..

In that days... i don't even think for having you as friend as much rumor i heard bout u at before.

For my first impression on u, u're totally a gal who know only to fool around love. But eventually longer i know u, i realized it's not a fact.

Well. Diana. Here,accept my rudeness.. No offense.. Just telling the truth.

As u said so, i had my first hand phone at last. However, its aimed to try contact with another gal i like before. After that, i n u started to contact to each other.

In the first few messages, most of them is about to her.

While the days pass by, we began to share our everything to each other.

I had to admit... These days, i am very happy while sometimes u act stupidly to me.

Moreover, i more likely when u sharing your "shit" to me...

However, for me, also the funniest one...

I had totally accompanied you by having a phone talk bout few hours.

In these few hours, i still remember the moment u attempt to get water from bottom floor

Picking the phone, walking down the stairs, took a glass n filling it with water and also asking me not cut off the call

Because someone afraid of black down there will appear some familiar souls

^^

Sooner, i found out that i might fall in love with you.

Maybe its also the same condition to you in that current time.

Then, i put myself in a position.

Rather to chase you or her.

Now, i think you had figured out i pick who at last.

She might be the best fit to cup of my tea.

But i don't know the reason for me to pick up the decision.

In somehow, i felt very regret to our every beginning.

It would be better if i never know u as well.

Both of us won't be suffered in years if we do so.

But also appreciate to you, i had totally removed out my addict to games.

Before, i such like a dumb child.

Spend the times and money on CC games.

Now, i actually no interest on games.

I played it for only solve my loneliness and suffer.

Honestly, its not work at all.

I should be able to surpass all of this matters and get through looking for new relationship maybe.

Still, i couldn't find anyone around me could attach me such hard feeling.

Recall my memory...

Since i get my " Upsr " result which only 3 A's, i began to change my self.

I actually can't accept this fact until now.

I aimed for 5 or more A's in that current time. But i failed.

In the day, i receive the result, i completely upset.

I had just disappointed my parents.

My parents didn't scold me at all.

But in my deepest heart, i know i hurt their dream as hard as i taken.

Then, i become more inactive in talking and managed to escape this fact from gaming.

I wonder...

Do my friends realized my changing?

Hmm.. Not really. In my limited memory space, they are just fool me around by nicknamed me as " bla bla bla" which those words i couldn't accept.

And in some moment, i had just released my anger by doing some stupid act on my friend.

[pass something to friend and ask them finish me rather than fool me around]

I extremely an idiot in those times. ( Sounds of my heart )

Well. For me, the life was getting worse. ( Not now ^^ i am enjoying on my life :)

Thanks god. I finally thought out something.

My friends, they actually never give up on me.

They nicknamed me was aimed to ...

They fooled me was aimed to ...

They doing all of these was to awaken me from that kinda of life.

Thanks guys. I love u guys.

Very thankful.

I now what i am.

It's all thank to u.

Even within lack of my soccer ability, u guys managed to put me off to win a best scorer award in the last year i anticipated the competition.

U guys are awesome !!

I'll be just fine when u guys are just around me. ☆

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Gal, the day i spoke out give up...

I had been regret as much as the day we break.

But, while i put my thought into your shoe, i should let you get flee from it.

You deserve a better and suitable relation.

Maybe now, u had already put yourself in suffer on your single love to another guy.

Well.. i had felt sad and down on it.

But if that is adequate for what you want in the part of your wholesome life...

Then i should let you through it without any delay .

Without me, you're fine because you have "him".

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In the end of this, i still managed to say...

I Love You.

"I just be better than yesterday" 

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"Your smile would lead me to paradise."   

★ everything we missed will be last with a little regret ★