End of Holidays

21 Feb 2010
The 9 days holidays had came to the end
Along the cab back to KL... I felt reluctant to say goodbye to holidays...
When could be the next holidays... ^^

Well.. CNY in this year is not total bad...
I ate like a stallion but its been forced actually
My relatives keep insert the food onto my plate while i was having any meal with them
Hence, i can't take any excuse. The belly grow bigger day by day.
But i enjoyed with that.. Because compared to my current KL life, i had no need to think for spend money wisely and the meal to eat...
Everything was just prepared here
Everything was just put me in comfort
Still something makes the holidays imcomplete
My family them had to leave me at my grandma house because my dad had to continued return to his job
Somehow, my sister-in-law teased me that will cry like a baby while having a scene that the family leaving me in front of my sight
Honestly, i did felt in such way but not tended to cry
Since the day i come KL to study, I had only spend a little time with my family
Even in holidays, i probably stayed with them not much than 5 days
I had look enviously on some people...
I wonder why only my college have so little holidays...
Compared to other who picked the foundation course as well, at least they could have a holiday that lasts for 2 weeks or more...
Gosh...

 家人&佳节

Hmmm I think i had already spoke out of topic...
Hehe.. oh well... I received a few of Angpau
Still i thinking of buy a smartphone to myself
However, i  found one target
Unfortunately my saving amount had quite off value to the price of it
Apparently, i had decided to tighten up my stomach and eat only breads or some rice for my daily meals in aim to achieve my financial goal
Still the only issue is my determination
I wonder how long i can last for this
Days? Weeks? Months?
Let's open the eyes and look on it
Bless me for remain the determination
Hope me won't lost the passion

Return to my real world, i will stay all alone after this semester because my roommate who also my best friend will finish up his course and enjoy his holidays
Yet, i have to spend over months at the same room but with different people maybe
Then，i will accept the fate and start trying new life

Thinking about the needs
I would like to prefer have a transport... a car
I need drive
Lots of reasons had drive me to this will
Soonly, i will change my P License into better 'grade'
Shamefully, i never drive a car after the trip to Kuantan
Haha... The experience driving in Kuantan was awesome
I drove my friend's car and hang out with them at midnight 2~ 5 a'm.
The road was empty
I remembered that moment
While i positioned on the driver seat, i look toward from the front mirror
There's a straight road
Nothing there... Nothing blocking...
The car i drove keep increased the speed... My mood began to be buoyant... It's the first experience drove car at a town within high speed
120km/j only... I had already felt the wheels had totally flee off from the roads... But i was completely infatuated with that current feeling
I hardly to imagine if i can drove more even faster, and how's the feeling will be
So high!! Everything seemed blown off from my brain
Nothing disturbing Nothing Annoying
I was totally calm but high also
That day i don't even  get any alcohol, but i already in crazy
It seemed that i like danger at sometimes

Recall bout Kuantan
The beach
I Love it Very Much
But the day i visited it ain't a good time
Because i had totally depressed while saw couples are all around of me
Hanging each other hand ... walk pass the seaside
Enjoying the soft wind... Stepping on the white sand...
If there's a chance, i would like to bring her come along with me and enjoy all of these
Any future are stands against odds....
I will not going to think bout it further more
And i not dare to think as well

So in the end, Wish everyone enjoy their Chinese New Year

If you're reading my blog, i wish you to being good luck for your coming exam...
I wish god blessed you and may you to be a funny angle
I wish you ...

发泄

这将是个短的post
昨天，我发泄了
平时我不知该怎么做
在高高的12楼那儿喊？
对着宽阔的海洋喊？
把足球狠狠地射进门？
喝酒买醉自己？
玩电玩麻醉自己？
都不行

但 我昨天做到了
你知道是什么方法吗？
我来告诉你吧
我足足走了1x km 吧
怎么走？ 多快？ 什么情形？
其实很小case
时速 100km/j
摩托车
晚上
在于小小的灯光的带领下
我做了这件事
当中 我差点就翻了
那些路 有沙 坑 石头
不过 就是让我闪过
我就是不知痛
我就是要追于那种的刺激
那种快感 让我得以放下少许的闷

但过了不久， 我想起了你
我脑中想着：“若我要有什么不测，你会怎么？” ”我的家人又会怎么“ ”我想和她的约会不就永远不成“ ”我那可爱的妹妹又会怎么“
一瞬间 我想通了
我停下来了
听听路旁的风声
宁静把我的清醒唤回来了  也把我吹回家
我安全的抵达了
还没回神， 你就来了一封短讯
我没第一时回答
我的心还在一个暗暗地深洞里害怕的躲着想着我的万一

新年快乐？

从小到今 我并不会对于除夕的来临感到兴奋  也从不对情人节感冒
不过 一切都随着她而改变
情人节 我都想与她度过  ；  新年 我都想尽方法让自己看起来更好
然而 今年 较特别
新年除一 及 情人节 都发生在同一天
In the first day of Chinese New Year, every child should be excited for getting an angpau from their parents
However, in the night of valentine, every boy should organize an unforgettable date with his own sweetheart
But me ; before the night of the day
I probably went to meet her
But it's a disappointed beginning and end.
There's no atmosphere had created for it.
I done nothing.
I felt i such like a nerd while facing to her.

Still... She just beautiful always as i saw in my mind.
I tend to hug her. But stupidly ask her whether she mind of it or not in promptly.
When after two of us separated and returned to our home, i directly addressed this issue to one of my online gal buddy.
After all, i retrieve lots from her.
And finally, i understood what's the wrong i felt in all the ways.
The buddy had advised me to invite her for a date as well.
But i didn't prepare anything since both of us knows this year valentine is not for us yet.
However, i had a depressed feeling while saw her glad with a rose in her facebook profile picture because i ain't prepared.

Well.
It's all today.
I don't know what to express and how to express.
Sorry for not creating a flow in this post.

Two-Edged Sword

Chinese New Year is approaching

I will be back to my hometown before it

Before.. I felt extremely excite

But... Every feelings seemed get bit changed

Still i wanted 2 cheer self up and finally decided to get hair cut before CNY

However, everything not going smoothly in my thought

Tomorrow, a buzzy day for me... However, Hung told me that he book a haircut appointment already at tomorrow... ' Monsoon ID Salon '

I suppose go with him but i also should perform a presentation during tomorrow lesson

Which i should choose?

Every decision seemed to be a two-edged sword to me

If i miss the presentation, the next chance could be after CNY or no more chance

If i do not go to salon, i will miss my first opportunity to have a new hair style

But actually, there's more i worry on both decision

Somehow, if i miss the presentation, the result will be unknown

Result... It's not bout the grade... it's about my future (either short-term or long-term)

[- -`] Sorry pal... I have to blow off our promise

It's too rush for me and too troubled me in mind while i have to choose one of it.

Decision

A simple decision could lead you a mistake which you can't overcome it

A simple decision could lead you to paradise as well if it benefited you

In short, a decision could influence a person's life

Don't matter the decision you taken is minor or not, it still capable to manipulate the future

Everything seemed difficult to pick

But for a certain persons, they could selected the decision without any figuring

Eventually, they pay for their decision

They might lost all their fortune in a moment.

They might get adequate luck to through obstacles.

Well... Who know what's going happen in future

But we exactly know that we'll never goal if we never take a shot

So don't be too stressful or panic while deciding something

Just aimed to enjoy the life and bring favor to everyone who's beside you

^^

I still have lots to write

But within lack of English writing skill, i couldn't express it completely

I here apologized for it at first

And... i had to go sleep right now

I had a promise with someone here

I should go off to sleep before 2a.m.

So... Ciao ~~

我的坚持成了你的伤害

今天，我伤害了自己， 也伤害了你
我的一份坚持，形成了你心里的伤口
假如我说的每句话、你都觉得沉重，我还能做什么?
我唯有放弃…… 我不怨天，不怨地，只怨自己
其实，我们都一样，被彼此的感情伤了又伤
我真的累了。 说好的怎么放弃了，但我始终做不到
你的影子一直在我心里挥之不去。 我始终没把这有说出口，但你又何尝不是
当你拒绝我时，我知道 眼泪在你心里不是无理取闹
你做出这些选择， 是因为你理解我的感受，然而也不想我再承受着所有的辛酸

至于爱情对我来说：越单纯越幸福
一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。

经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情

你现在该知道为何我忘不了你， 因为我深信它 ！

摩天轮，不停地转，不停的转，请把我今天的记忆换成明天的回忆吧！

我累了 

不想了

单身汉

我来了

我的明天

我来了

我的新年

也来了

寂寞的情人节

我来了