End of Year

Time is like the wind, it lifts the light and leaves the heavy


I guess, when the time goes by, we never notice what minor mistake we did, and eventually attached along with huge impact
And which, it is now happens on me.


People might always the first one to realize what bad things i have done
I always the last one to know about it
Sometimes, i would never know what i had did wrong and eventually being ignored 


In blink of eyes, i had lost two persons, who really meaningful to me.
One is my ex; another is my good friend.
I suppose those happens due to my characteristic.


I am not a huge fan of controller, but i am one of it
I dislike some of her activities and then, drags up a quarrel with her
Which eventually lead to unhappiness and stubborn decision from me.


Whereas,


I also not a fan of self-centered person, but again, i am one of it too
I done lots of thing which i felt unharmed to me
But, a massive disagreement between others and ignorance from my good friend too.


Allow me to have a deep breath.......Well.......


Life is too short, especially distracted by different opinions from other.
The hardest thing is we gotta accept that this is how & what evolves around the world.
I think i shall just climb over the obstacles with my own ladder and hunt for the comfort.


Normally,


Half of our life is messing up with problems; the other half is dealing with them.
But, life is only once for us, so, you and me shall make use of it, do anything you want
Avoid from getting regrets? 


EASY !


Grab chances, say yes & no, tell the truth, spend cash on your favorite, love someone, say i love you, cry, let other know what're they missing, who're you missing, have joke with friends,  laugh until your stomach hurts, MAKE LIFE GOOD !


HAHA


I've completely turned on.


Hmmm...


The time passed very fast.


It's already 8th week for my degree level 2 semester 1.


All of us gonna involved the mess along with assignments.


It's getting closer for me to get 20.


It's getting closer to say goodbye to 2011.


2012 is coming soon.


If there's a wish allowed once for 2011,


I wish two of them could ... 


I sincerely wished.


(People used to say, a wish that mentioned probably not granted)


So So


If you understand, you're good.


If you don't? Not bad..  :)

Impressive

7th week

Hey.. i think now is a suitable time for me to tell you something.
I supposed that it's really a correct time for me to confess to you now :)
We both should develop a mutual understanding, because in future, we will walk along together.
To be honest, there's always a fear wandering around my minds.
It's tough to bear you off my mind especially in thinking of my future.
Without you, i probably going to have a tough life as i foreseen.

In these 7 weeks, i tried to express my interest toward you. But eventually, i didn't.
Because, i am not determined for it.
In front of you, i had to wear an anxious look that i getting nervous,nervous and nervous.
Especially when i accidentally took a deep glance on you.
Nonetheless, i felt a little excitement in that particular moment, and also a great hustle to understand you.
There's a proliferation, a millions attempts to get know of you.

In these following weeks, i am very certain that i would probably rely on you very much.
So... Do you... willing.. to............


Hmmm....
C++ ... Assembly Language... Please... stay along with me.
Lets seize this opportunity. I promised that i would try my best to understand you.
For my own sake, please hold my hand and bring the light to my future.
Because... I'm afraid
OF INCOMING FUTURE ! OF UNCERTAIN SOMBRE THINGS !

Rush / Home sick

Droppin' my self in a rush
What kind of rush?
A rush in finding new place to stay & live
Since, i already situated in Level 2 degree, i need spaces to study / dota-ing :P
I don't felt like being attracted or disturbed since i know i weak in maintain determination
In this point,  i can't just talking on the paper (纸上谈兵)
I need actions
Else, other will tease on me again :(

Unfortunately, i didn't get know too much people who can lend me his/her hand in this sort of trouble
Hence, i think i shall ask some contact number from staff who responsible for the college accommodation at tomorrow
Hmmm.. since my mom agree the budget that i request, it should not being too much troubling me to find a place i preferable

Hopefully, everything will goes fine too in future
Well... Trouble come, we'll face, we'll solve
Yoshh... I felt great motivation now !

Lastly, i hope the flood don't really approach to my hometown in the end of 2011 as written in newspaper
I do want to back home
I miss my mom cook
I miss 蒜板 !!

Habits

Habit is quite a matter of people's opinion whether it is bad or good.
Here, i do have some to share my opinion.
You may agree or not. It is just merely a discussion.

Let me begin with the story of new comer to my house
Well.. I don't know where he comes from because we had only interact with each other twice only in a month.
Based on my observation, he's definitely a guy who active in socializing.
If you're me, you'll also find out that he used to invite people to his room.
Pops up the music in a great volume, which i and you don't understand the lyrics about (Unless you're same nationality with him :)
Yet this is never an unpleasant to me
But ... what if he did it not just only in day time? Is in 4 A.M !? In Weekday !?
Hohoooo... I have been overreacted....
Strangely, do they never take any considerations that people might been disturbed by it?
For me, this is amount to disrespect, which should not have any next time.
There is once, that i had been awake my self, walked out from my room, knocked his room, asked him to lower it down... Yet it happened again in yesterday..
So? Will this piss you off? What action you will apply for this scenario ?!

Instead of inviting friends come over the room and having some wild cheers..
Please.. Be aware of the mess you have done after the whole wild session ...
You know what !?

This is really obnoxious!

I can't really withstand the foul smell.

Well. I think other and i can say the same that i get very annoyed.

Before his arrival, there's never such thing happens.

Hmmmm...

I never complaint to anyone about this issue yet.

I think i should and i must too, indeed !

Fuck Yeah !!!

Hopefully, there's one day that our accommodation warden will have a peep on our house cleanliness... 

I would really appreciate on her hardworking .. 

Then, i gonna " put salt and vinegar " on it.

Who know? When he gonna pay for his "contribution"?

Time will come, I BELIEVE 

MUAHHAHA

How about the method of drying cloth?

In traditional way, we usually hang those wet clothes on the bamboo sticks

Even now, there's might little difference which is just the material of the stick

Some could be bamboo yet, some could be steel and etc

Anyhow, this guy is uncommon

He dry his cloth in his unique way : 

Drop all his wet cloths on the sofa

Then, maxed the fan power

Which eventually cause high cost of electric bill and some nauseated smells !!

I even felt thankful once i enter to my room

Because the wall and the door, they separated me from smells...

Lucky for him, other  haven't spoke out a word toward his dry cloth methods

God bless anyone who live the same house with him and his habits

Maybe i do have some bad habits which i haven't realized 

Thus, i should keep great awareness on it

When the time come, i will gonna drop myself into consciousness mode again, which probably tolerate myself a lot better

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Bit bit small complaint :)
I usually on music when online-ing

My china roommate will follow his song and pop up " wonderful " voice
Haha.. Sometimes really drop my mood into the end of bottom
"Beh Tahan !!"
But his quite good in overall
So, nothing to comment in further
Ciao guys...

Lovely Night & High Mode

In one night, one day, a public holiday, you'd been staying in a same room for entire night, with no one else accompanying you.
How could you felt?
Lonely, Boring, Lifeless?
Come, let's experience with me.
Get the Light close, Music on, Lay on lovely bed, Staring to the red sky, Enjoy the moments.
It makes you me felt good.

Pick up every single happiest moments in your mind.
And recall those at once. It fascinated us man....
Let's do it! At least, once.....

In our life, people had to face the incoming troubles, treats, unhappiness, and etc
However, we must remind ourselves to be stronger after every those happens
Whereas, the stress is slowly installed in our mind set
So, we should constantly put ourselves, set ourselves, get ourselves into a sort of environment, which makes us felt comfort and ease, instead of be-ing emo
In this moment, we should forget the increasing cost of living, we should temporarily put down the unhappiness of losing something
Close our eyes and counting the 'things' we are having now.
Felt the bless and the lovely gift from nature
Night sky is pretty..
Especially lay on the bed
^^

Body, System

We, the human being
Our body is exactly similar as how a computer system works
Once any components does malfunction, it will particularly affect the system usage
It goes what happens to our body as well

Recently, while i was playing footsal, attempting to hold the ball, my leg was twisted :

which eventually caused me the spring ankle

It took almost 2 weeks and more to recover

But yet, it is not fully recover

Even now, the pain still goes on, especially in attempt to run and jump or walked after a long distance

Hopefully, the leg itself do recover in weeks later

Because i damn eagerly to play footsal and basketball

Moreover, the doctor had advised me to swim if i do really wanna to do any exercise

However, i don't know how to swim.. LOL

Seemed like the time has come. 

I felt bit of excitement with this decision.

I GOTTA LEARN IT IN WEEK LATER!

But... It's kinda of embarrass of learning in face of crowd

HAHA.. IDK...

[Short post]

[Because i am going to face exam soon]

[Somehow, i afraid i was unable to pass the exam]

[Since my injury had caused my absent for 2 weeks & more]

[Which a lot of new chapters been proceed]

[Hu... Eminem : Not Afraid]

Almost lost

These few days.. i barely lost
I am so appreciated the advice from my virtual sister, Levine
She told me: ' Be a man, do the right things'
Eventually, i found myself.

I am not born in a rich family, in which my monthly budget could only enough for limited expenses
Hence, i shall begin to save money for my needs
In the other hands, i have to sacrifice the social activities which cost me lot of money
Of course, my sacrifices definitely exclude sport needs

I have to decrease the involvement of the entertainment in order saving my money for self needs
Meanwhile, i have to retreat myself from some activities in a coming gathering from my hometown pals
Though my absence, you guys will still having fun there

'Be a man, do the right things'
I decided for not looking for open relationship off these few years since i can't even feed myself fat with these budgets
What's for? Causing my gal have no enjoyment with me is definitely not welcome to my mind.
Hence, i gotta having the single life for couples years unless the gal is willing for it
But this possible rate will never higher than 5%

Well... a man will definitely have lot of things to do yet
The right things to do!

The first will be remove the addiction to junk foods especially potato chips.
But hu... I just bought a new pack of potato chips.
Haha.. So shit !

B.ball

To watch daily NBA action is something that amazes me always.
It's something i could done in everyday ; something that i never get bored of.
It is so fantastic to see how the top basketballer in the world performs in their game.

Today via NBA highlights, the hot guy definitely is Clippers rookie star - Blake Griffin.

During the NBA All-Star Dunk Contest 2011, the best dunk ever picked by NBA insiders :

 

What could i say for this? Nothing but deeply amazed & jealous. Because i could never have a chance to do it even just a simple dunk.
 Same as most of the Asian, my jumping ability is under average standard. Furthermore, my height is only 178cm. Even if i do improve my leg strength, i could only barely touch the rim. Thus, i would never gain the chance to gaze at this wonder.

Anyway, today i am here to intro about my favorite NBA players. In case, i could pick 5 NBA players to form the best NBA squads. The squad certainly will list down as shown at below:

1. Jason Kidd [PG]
2. Kobe Bryant [SG]
3. Shane Battier [SF]
4. Tim Duncan [PF]
5. Dwight Howard [C]

I DAMN LOVE BASKETBALL !

I'm back

Hey blog... Long time no see..
How are you doing recently?

Well well.. Are you asking about me either?
Hmm... I'm situated in a kinda of fine condition.

You know what?
I recently was trying to concentrate to doing something without being distracted.
Well.. On the footsal or basketball court, i can completely concentrated because i always have the strong will to win any game  [ even it's just a low level games ]
[ But other will apologize to me due to my madness of losing a game ] [ Hehe.. wry smile... Why they will did it to me? ] [ Words above is muttering to self ] :p

Why i wanna to be focus on doing something?
Ask yourself.
Have you ever positioned yourself in the situation of can't focus on doing something and the outcome become effective or good?
Answer is 'no' man..

Give you an example.
In a football field, whenever the defender who hasn't pay attention on the guy movement who he should be tight marked
That potentially caused him run off the defender and form sort of treats in front of goals and indirectly cause the lose to you.

Hence, concentrate is very vital while doing something.

Huuu...
Every time with the attempt do assignment, once i opened my laptop
I might have do some research but it only hold for few minutes
After that, i will started to being distracted by other entertainment from the online world

Sometimes, i will think that... Is it that hard to hold the focus on doing something which we're not very interested with?
Eventually, i get my self a conclusion.
The best solution is actually think about the What you may accomplish through the hard work u been done for.
It may push us further to stay focus, and you will felt the enjoyment of the progress.
According to Greg Anderson, " Only one thing has to change for us to know happiness in our lives : where we focus our attention "

Strange Feel

In a sudden, i felt spiritually empty.
It happened after i finish watched the Bleach anime episodes.
The main character, Ichigo finally defeat Aizen.
I've been hid my eagerness of watching this anime episodes for few months.
After then, in today, the end of my degree level one semester one exam, i decided for finish it off.
In the end, i completed it.

I laid on the sofa.
Looking at the white walls around me.
Under a very quiet environment.
Brain is blank.
In a sudden, i felt my heart is empty

I can't have the reason for why
Because i don't even have the intention to think anything

While staring on the books besides me, it reminded me of how long i been stay together with them
And now,
Huuuu...
I don't know.
Everything comes and goes silently.

I felt powerless.
I need a rest.
I need to seek for new motivation.
Exactly.
I need a new pusher.

It seems whenever i had accomplished one thing, i will certainly miss on the process
But once after that part, empty find me once again.

Hehe. I don't know what am i writing here.
This is the worst ever post i been published.
Anyway, if you don't understand, ignore it.
Thanks

In a sudden

I'm going to begin this post with the title name

In a sudden, i addicted to the song named " What are words "
Today, i totally listen to that song for twenty times or maybe even more
I kinda of admire on his sing talent and his faithful to his beloved

Unfortunately, his disqualified from American Idol.
I'm not a typical American Idol fans.
I found his video clip via Youtube.
I was instantly love to listen that song.
Please guys / gals...
Send your blessing to him and his fiancé.

I love his quote.

 "What kind of guy would I be if I walked out when she needed me the most?" 

Are you?


Hehe...
This is my first time of being so supportive a man who i never know.
Please send him some sincere bless in your heart if you felt sympathize with his experience with his beloved

Good Luck. I believes Miracle will happens. This is why life being so interesting.

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Tomorrow will become my last exam papers.
It also the paper which require the most memorizing.
My head getting bigger and bigger for inserting this large quantities of terms
Huhuhuhu.. Time's to sleep.
Wake up in early and fight for it.
In the end, let's make the outcome comes along with joy.
In the next day, let's go for the gathering.
I'm coming.
Either to the gathering and my sweet home.
Beloved sister ... Haha i think you will not read what I've written here.
Prepare the racket ... Your big bro will achieve his promises this time.
He 'll play badminton with you, without excuses this time.

Last Declare

Finally, today, i can finally declare the truth.
In the beginning, it's really hard to accept the truth.
But still, we managed to develop into a better relationship.
Eventually, it did came to the end in past few months.
At that particular time, i not prepared to declare this statement.
Since you will never ever give me another opportunity.
Thus, now,me, Crank Leow, is declaring that the struggle within my heart is over.

Well.
Sincerely, i really thanks to you for giving me such experience.
Even during the progression,  there were lots of difficulties and struggles.
But we do have a great memory, aren't you?
It would deeply memorized into part of my life.
However, these memories not really too awesome yet i not manged to offer a better one.
But, i did hope you enjoyed the everything i gave to you.
Those memories had put a perfect full stop for the end of our relationship.
It was quite unfortunate that we can't develop into further relationship.
But since that was fated, both of us had to accept it.
You're handling this very well recently, its far better than i am.
I really proud of you.
And i admitted, you're a good gal.
You have good taking cares on your family, and great considering on facts.
In short, don't put self too much struggle.
Just being yourself.
You had the charm smile, and cold hands.
Furthermore, because of you, i having my first time of realized that there's someone who did missed me so much (exclude my sister)
You hug me so tight and i can feel my shoulder wet in the same time.
Besides, i used my fingers to draw the tears smoothly off your face
And,
That was the last time we met.
Do you still remembered it?

Well
Sincerely, the purpose of re-opening my Facebook is hoping to get into next relationship
But after i did taking some consideration, i would like to declare another thing.
It is : i will not involve into next relationship.
It's not about you; but i can't pass through the obstacle within my heart.
These obstacles are totally about what capable i offer to my beloved.
I did told you before.
Hopefully you still remembered it.

3rd declaration, i enjoyed with my single life.

Friends keep asking me to re-open my Facebook account .
But the more they ask, i felt like being positioned in the center of the sea.
I really don't find a way to have a direction to go.
Because I've stick along with one question yet.
For a man, i should not felt struggle especially in making such easy choice.
So? Still... What should i do !?
Huhu...
A long breath doesn't putting me into ease.

Well.
Later about 11a.m.  i have an exam to attend.
Unfortunately, in this late 3 a.m. i unable to felt into asleep.
This wonder taking me so hard.
I can't hold it anymore, thereby, this is why this post kick off.

Why would a complicated thought always keeping me energized?
Isn't it suppose to make people felt more tired?
Damn !

By this way, i shall taking my time for extra revision.
But, i having much confidence on handling coming exam questions.
So if i did that, without enough rest, my mental would gone crash.
Maybe during the exam, i might not perform with the best due to physical fatigue and bad mental condition as well

Perhaps, i hope i have the sleeping pills right now.
I never eat pills if it is not necessary.
Some one told me , eating too much pills making you becoming unhealthy.
Therefore, she always do her best to avoid eating pills.
Huh? Why i suddenly divert into that call?

Huhuhu...
Problem stay still ?
Facebook Account ___ ON / OFF ? ___
Fine... Sleep st.
Finish this 2 weeks exam st.
Then, just begin to think about it.

Well. Without Facebook, i rue missed the Java exercise which passing around by friends to friends via Facebook.
I think i might even failed with this subject and have to re-take the exam.
Re-take it won't taking me lots of problem but i don't want to spend another RM 80 for that.
So wasteful.
Hopefully i could pass that subject.



ADD-ON:

For god sake, i get an instant reply for my question.
I firmly make the decision.
I'm re-open my Facebook account without any hesitation.
It created at 5 a.m.
Levine... Join me.
It's kinda of loss without seeing you around in either MSN or Facebook.

...

Yo.. I'm back...
Kuh.. I don't know how this topic should been named
So.. Well.. Anyway.. Let's begin

The figure above showed my unfinished posts which i eventually deleted
Thus, you may know that i am not busy much but just don't have the interest to continue it

^^
Recently, i am stressed with the pressure which came along with the exam coming
The first instinct in my mind is probably set up the revision schedule for my entire one buffering week
Somehow, the subjects of my schedule is slowly replacing by the entertainment materials, such as Dota Commentaries (An entire epic match between two Dota pros teams), NBA all-star news ( NBA dunk contest - Blake Griffin fly over a car! ), online comic (Captain Tsubasa, Slam Dunk) and etc...

Alas, i still know only the very very basic of Java programming language yet the exam is only 2 to 3 days left
At here, i have a confession to make - I really good in finding excuse of avoiding to study
Even though i always repeat to self for not doing this and that anymore when determined to study, but still my laziness is beyond such mind torturing
I will continuously ignore it and advance through the entertain parts

Come to think of it, hmmm...
Since i not used to study hard, how about study smart !?
But how would the earth goes will considered as study smart?
How should i define the methods?
Now, this question is wandering around my brain

Fuh... Anyhow, i'm now could feel the edgy and terrify of facing this FSD exam
My brain is totally blanked; i could not pop out any thing of finding the answer right now !
Lol !
Maybe now i should just squinted my eyes rather than being too stressful
Yeah. There's still couple of days yet
Result will change whenever goals happen
Even only a blink of eyes, one shot from opponent could probably convert into a goal

Therefore, i should remain calm and try to stay focus in order to prevent bad happens
So !!

2011 Begin

Domo
I'm kinda a lazy bug
It's already been days after the new year, but i am just coming to edit this post

Well. I actually inspired by a friend who named , Chiew
His a good writer. His article always attract me a lot.
And, i am here because of his older post - New year resolution
Just right after i read that post, one idea pop out from my mind.
Why can't i follow him to create a new year resolution since 2011 arrived.
So.. That's the How this post created :)

Hmm...
Getting a failure in previous years actually not a big deal
But we shall learnt from it
And making a fresh start.

No glum face,
Do not depress,
But dedicate yourself to face the failure

Crank quote : " When child was learning to walk, they used to stand up once they fall down; But
                          There's always a beam smile on the child face. Because they believed that
                          More they fall down, closer for them to master the skill of walk.
                          Hence, we shall believe that human used to face challenges since born."

Crank : Does it make sense !?  [muttering to himself]  Yes. It does.

Well. I have mucked around about too much in 2010.  A bad leadership + Lazy attribute caused me scored only a B while other acquired their A in their assignment marks. I still clearly remembered the disappointment in that moment. And actually i did decide to make plans to ensure that such tragedy will not happen again.  Eventually, my determination is not beyond my laziness. Most of the plans are just come into thought once again. Haha. Gosh!

So ! In this case, my first goal is to strengthen my determination.
I shall taking the plans seriously since today.
Maybe i should also set up sort of motivation to push me further.

Hmmm...
While thinking on other side,
Sometimes, such determination might cause us the frustrations.
Do you ever think that, if when something happen that is not expected, or hope, will you become frustrated and angry?
So do i.
Hence, to avoid the emotional change, we may actually choose to give up the hope and expectation as much as possible, then we will not be frustrated.

Furthermore,
For some group of people, they only believes only facts that are favorable to them are truth.
However,
When the hard fact come to them, they could possibly not accept it and know no other way to live.
That's why there's people commit suicide.

And,
Oh .. I am over thinking once again.
Haha !!
If i continue it, i would be the one who having a boat in the mid of ocean, never able to find any directions back to land.
By the way,  i shall stop it right now.

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Well Well
If having one good friend could already consider as fortunate to a person
How about having group of good friends?
It's absolutely awesome.

Friendship forever ~

! That night was memorable to us !